i dont know what is going on in my life these few days..
everything seem so topsy turvy..

but one thing i know for sure is that God is always behind me,
and i know he understands the pain i go through.
why do people fall away from God?
even my dearest brother whom i so deeply respect..
why? why? why?
the person whom i look up to the most in my family..
who always defended me when i get bullied,
who always make me laugh,
who see me grow up
it hurts so bad that i just cant stop thinking about my brother
why did he fall away?
why did he leave church?
does he still love god?
will he come to my baptism?
if he see me become a disciple, will he change?
will he leave everything behind and start anew?
there are so many questions i want to ask him..
but right now he isn't in singapore..
kor if you ever see this,
please come back to the church
i want you to come back.
why did u go malaysia to work in the first place..
we miss you..
dont you want to see your own sister
get baptised?
come back okay? dont fall away..
come back..... come back.........
although i never told you, but whenever you all go back to malaysia
i feel so sad.. sometimes i cry to my pillow wishing you will
come back and tell me you will stay in singapore..
no matter wad, u will always be my brother.
and i know, one day u will come back.
till that day comes, i will always keep you in my prayer.